It rained and I couldn't go blaze training. At 6.45pm, I was told that the training was cancelled. Yet, at 8.05pm, puiyee called informing me training was resumed! But there's no use telling me at that point of time, by the time I reach kallang netball court, it would've been 9 plus. It's all my handphone's fault! Even if I was charging it, I can't switch it on.

However, although my trip my second home was ruined, I stay home and watched "Zhong Ji Yi Ban" (recommanded by tingz). The sight of DaDong lifted my spirits! Oh gosh! He is the third guy in this year that I've considered a real male. Finally, there someone new in my male list -- 1. Josh Harnett 2. Ben Affleck 3. Wang Dong Chen :)

Sometimes when I was watching "Zhong Ji Yi Ban", I admire the students in "Zhong Ji Yi Ban" standing out and speaking up for their friends during troubled times, because I can't, I don't even have the courage for to speak up for myself. I'm such a coward.

I feel that kallang netball centre is where I belong.

For tuesday's training we did BMX and on wednesday I ran 12 rounds around the field. I had muscle ache all over my body and I felt as if I will collapse any moment. Moreover, my cough is getting out of control day by day.

On friday's school training I felt heavy because of my muscle aches and couldn't concentrate. I couldn't lift my legs and felt like giving up. It was very exhausting.

However, once I step into kallang netball centre at night for Blaze training, I can easily lift my legs up -- I could even fly. I love netball and kallang netball centre is like my second home.

I don't know why now I'm not attracted to males ( except josh harnett and ben afleck :D ). Maybe I will turn out to be a lesbian, who knows? :p Guys suck.

School reopens tommorow! Part of me is actually looking forward to it. It's just the homework that's bothering me. I love being a student, wearing uniform, attending lessons, doing assignments, training... I can't imagine life in the real world.

Yesterday went Blaze training, it didn't go well :S First we went for a 'short run' outside and did circiut with weights. After that we did straight shuttle and drills that deal with our basic like timing and passes. Did it over and over again :S Luckily it was in the night or else I won't be able to last for so long. We didn't play game, because we wasted a lot of time on the drills. During debrief we got a sort of scolding from coach :S No comments.

Today had training under the scorching sun at school. After yesterday's friendly game and tuesday trip to Wild Wild Wet, I was very tanned already. After about 3 hours under the stupid sun today, liting say I look like a malay from the back :'(

Training was very slacky in the beginning when 3 secondary ones came. We were suppose to help coach train them and yet only 3 of them turned up. All of them are mommy-girls, most did not turn up because their parents didn't let them come. I doubt this batch can produce any results :

After training the secondary ones we had a game with the c division. Trashed them in the first 4 quarters but they caught up in the last 2 quarters when we played any position we like :p

After training went the tampines mall's crystal jade to have dinner with my family. Actually my mother went there to buy a television, a PLASMA. She's so spendthrift, a normal television will do, yet she insist on buying a plasma. I can buy so many pairs of sports shoes and clothes with that money! I'm still trying very hard to convince my mother not to make that stupid move.

Tomorrow have Blaze training, hope everything goes well.

Today we went all the way to Yishun to play a friendly game with Northland Secondary. I had a great time! I really felt good when I'm playing with Leecheng. Although we didn't train with each other for almost 3 months, we can still play very well together. It was as if we were back in our secondary 2 days. I really enjoyed myself.

I've been depressed and felt lousy for the past few days, but all my troubles and fears are driven away by Leecheng. It's so good to have her back! We are really " Tian Xia Wu Di ", no one can replace her.

I'm happy partly because coach gave us a treat at swensons today! Coach, liting, leecheng and I shared one giant earthquake :) Thanks for the treat coach!

I'm not depressed anymore! I'm happy! Thanks to Leecheng, thanks to coach. Thank God.

Fun at Wild Wild Wet

I went to Wild Wild Wet at downtown today! Although I was quite tired and depressed after yesterday's match, the fun and thrill I had today made me bring all those netball stuff behind my back. I'm happy! :) If you are going to Wild Wild Wet, don't come out without playing the Samsung Slide Up. The ride was Oh My God. It was as if you fell into a waterfall. It had been such a long time since I had such great fun.

Tommorow having a friendly match with Northland. I hope I can play well with my dear partner Leecheng back!

55.5kg

Yay!This morning when I woke up weighing myself, I was so happy that I was only 55.5kg! I think not over-eating really works!

I'm 16

I'm feeling depressed nowadays.

I went service today pouring my heart out to God in prayers and I was assured that I'm specially chosen by God -- I'm selected, I'm precious. But, once I step out of church, I felt useless again. I can't help but think about the Damai netballers and the under 17 national players. They are 16 and I'm 16. They play netball and I play netball. Why is there so much difference? Why am I so useless compared to them? I can't help but to feel depressed.

I'm trying my best to work hard towards my goals. I don't want to regret when I grow up. I shall do this with the help of God. I can do all things through Christ who streghtens me.